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When Being Brave Means Disappointing Others

“Do not think that you can be brave with your life and your work and never disappoint anyone. It doesn’t work that way.”- Oprah Winfrey

I am not typically an Oprah Winfrey fan, but I fully believe that you can learn from others, even if you don’t necessarily agree with everything they believe in.

This quote from Oprah Winfrey, which she shared when interviewed by Brene Brown awhile back, really struck a cord with me.

I wouldn’t say that I am necessarily a people pleaser.  I tend to march to the beat of my own drum and am fairly confident in the things that I want to pursue.  I am a classic INFJ (even my husband was shocked at how well this description pegged me) and when my gut feels strongly in a direction, I do not hesitate to walk towards it, even though odds may be against me.

I am a dreamer. Details tend to bore and overwhelm me, but that doesn’t mean I don’t find them important. They just aren’t my strengths. I don’t seek advice a lot, unless I really, really need direction and wise counsel in an area.  I want the best information possible if I have to make a big decision and I find myself stuck.

I am not a people pleaser, but at the same time, I really don’t enjoy disappointing people. I never want to make someone upset about my actions or decisions, even if they are the best for ME and MY Family.

But the reality is, I will disappoint people.  And so will you.

I have to imagine that when David decided to take on Goliath, even after well meaning people told him not to because he was young, not a soldier, and inexperienced, that it took some bravery. (Read 1 Samuel 17 for more insight onto this…plus, the story of David and Goliath is always a good one.  So many great lessons we can glean from this!)

His own brother was angry with David and mistook David’s willingness to go up against the giant as selfish and as a means to gain popularity and ranking, instead of seeing that David loved His Lord and wanted to serve and defend Him and state the truth of who God was and about Israel. David had faith that God was leading this incredible moment. Just a note, you will have family members who will mistake your bravery and direction with motives you didn’t intend.  Do not be afraid, but understand that it will happen.

365 times do the words “Do Not Fear” appear in the bible.  God says that to His followers many times, as a way to encourage them as they navigate the often treacherous and uncertain waters of their lives, or they find themselves in situations they are unsure about.

God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, and love, and of self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7

Lately, due to the many changes going on currently in our life, I have found myself embracing new opportunities and asking new questions about my life, my dreams and what I want to pursue.  I am not necessarily leaving behind current obligations, but being open and praying about how I can best utilize my gifts, talents, dreams and abilities to serve God and serve His people.

I have been writing more, which while does not bring me a paycheck, it has allowed me express my heart and share what God has been teaching me.  If I could never work again in my life, writing and blogging is what I would want to do.

I have also been taking advantage of my love of fashion and shopping and selling clothes on a fun little app called Poshmark.  This is another way to help bring in additional income for my family, and try out something new.  Many people will view it as a waste of time, but I am not really concerned with that.  It is fun for me and I have found myself enjoying the process of finding cute items to list, sell, then wrap beautifully and ship to a customer.  I enjoyed working in retail as a teenager, and I don’t think I would mind working in a retail store or boutique.

I am still working as an online health and fitness coach through Be a Size You.  I have really stopped focusing on challenge groups and have found that most of those who follow me are needing more individual attention and guidance and encouragement.  They are willing to buy a plan, but they aren’t comfortable yet with sharing with an entire group of women they don’t really know (and truthfully, it is hard to really know someone online.)  This allows me to build  a better relationship with the woman I am serving, and really help her be the hero in her own health and fitness story.  This decision goes against the grain of “do more challenge groups” and “sell a bunch of fitness plans and shakes.”  I love our fitness programs and I love our nutritional products, and those who do my 1:1 sessions do need to invest in one or both of those in order to get started, but we will journey through it together and they will have my full attention.

Are you about to embark on something new, and are afraid of disappointing others?  Be brave, sister friend. You are bound to.  But when others express disappointment in you because you are choosing to go down a different career path, goal, adventure, whatever……understand that most of the time, they just can’t understand what you are doing because they aren’t willing to do it themselves.  You aren’t doing it for them.

My WHY is always my family.  Every business decision, every relational decision, every heart decision….my family is the biggest motivator for them.  My dream is to serve them and take care of them. To create something wonderful that I could possibly pass on to them.  To live a life of faith and trusting in God’s goodness and mercy and grace and teaching my children to embrace all that the Lord has for us and for them and for their future.  Others will not understand it or your bravery, but it will be okay.

Be a Size You,

Tiffany

 

How Does God Lead Us?

This past Sunday, at church, I really enjoyed the message that the Pastor shared with us in regards to listening to the voice of God.

I feel like it is a topic that regularly needs to be taught upon, because there seems to be a great deal of confusion as to the voice of God, what that looks like, sounds like, and there is a lot of noise.

And truthfully, if I can be honest Sister Friends, we seem to believe that our feelings align, when more often than not, our feelings can lead us astray and away from God’s perfect will for our lives. I loved this quote from Sunday:

“Sometimes we are so focused on seeing signs and the spectacular, that we miss the simplicity of God’s voice.”

YES!  Have you ever spoken to someone who constantly declares that they had a sign from God that they were supposed to go in a certain direction (even if that direction is sin) and give God the glory for it? Friends, God will not lead us in a way that is contrary to His word. He is not a God of confusion. But, they falsely believe that it was from God because their vision or feelings were so spectacular, they only assumed it was from God, not their own fleshly wants.

I want so badly to be a woman who is lead by God and can discern His voice in my life. These ways listed, I believe will help me and many of you!

Pastor Gary shared that there are 5 ways that God will lead us-and it isn’t always how we might think.

  1. God will lead us by our knowledge of right and wrong.  Doing what is right and allowing God to work out the details.
  2. By His Word. This seems to be a no brainer, and as a Christian woman, one would think that we are constantly in His word for guidance, peace, hope, direction. But too many instead seek wisdom from “Christian” bloggers and authors and social media accounts, instead of going to the source.  That source is the Bible! Psalm 119:105 . Do you believe God’s word is ALIVE? Because I do!
  3. Leads us by His peace.  Colossians 3:15 One of the reasons God puts peace in our hearts is to help us navigate the challenges in our lives. When the peace is destroyed, I need to get alone with God and find out WHY. Pastor Gary compared God’s peace to  like playing umpire in your life.  I loved that comparison, especially as a sports mama. Allowing God’s peace to play umpire in my life will help me see Balls and Strikes in my circumstances and the challenges.
  4. Through the Godly counsel of other people. Yes to all of this!!!!!  We don’t need to seek counsel from everyone, but we should be discerning enough to seek counsel from people who love the Lord. To dig deep and draw from that person, like a person drawing water from a well for living. When we don’t seek advice from others who love the Lord, especially when we need to seek advice, it is PRIDE. Don’t be prideful.  Draw it out!
  5. Lead us by His Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was given to us upon our confession of faith.  It will be dropped into our spirit.  These are not your feelings, but a deep longing that is only stirred by God. The Holy Spirit will never disagree with the Word of God.

If you want some additional reading and studying on this topic of listening and being led by God, read 1 Kings 19:1-13.  Pay attention to how God leads and speaks and works in Elijah’s life and circumstance.

Dig deep into the well, sister friend.  There is living water there.

Be a Size You,

Tiffany

The Habits of a Fit Person

This question was answered on social media today by one of the fitness trainers I follow, and while her answer was “technically” true….I want to add more to the conversation.

Her answer was that a fit person doesn’t skip workouts, even when on vacation or during holidays.

Yes, it is true that, for the most part, those who consider themselves fit, don’t cancel their workouts for things like holidays or vacation.  But, I think a fit person’s habits go much deeper than just not skipping their workouts.

I am in a season of my life where my workouts are at a much slower pace than before.  I don’t really have a specific physical goal in mind right now.  With the constant change our family is experiencing, God is directing my heart towards other areas that need nourishing and a health check up.

Things like dealing with stress effectively, my attitude when things don’t go my way (again), and how to stop hanging out with worry and doubt and start clinging to faith. (Watch this awesome Video that I saw this morning….it inspired me so much!)

The habits of a Fit person is one that looks similar on the surface (the workouts, the nutrition, etc), but very different in terms of their emotional state and well being.

A fit person has:

*Faith in the process– they realize that some seasons are going to be about goal setting and goal reaching and other seasons will be slower. But they understand the value of moving their body for their overall health

*The wisdom to rest– They know when their body has reached its limits. When it is time to slow down. To put aside the pressure of looking or feeling a certain way.  That maintenance is a healthy by-product of the fit life. That their LIFE is not a fitness competition.

*The ability to be present and enjoy those they are around, even if they are surrounded by food they should refrain from- This one, I think is hardest because we live in a diet minded society.  We constantly hear and see the list of Don’t Eat This in magazines, social media and nutrition plans. The fit person recognizes what works for them.  What doesn’t serve them, and they are experiencing FREEDOM to abstain and still enjoy being in the presence of their friends and family. This is especially true during the holiday season.  All those baked goods and rich foods are tempting, and they are delicious!  But, the fit minded woman will choose her favorites without guilt and happily say no to the things that she doesn’t enjoy or need in her life.

*Joy and Freedom– She is not in prison to her fitness plan or her nutrition program.  The whole point of her deciding to embark on this journey to being healthier was to bring her freedom.  Freedom from foods dictating her emotions and keeping her in chains. The joy of God directing her steps as she stepped outside of her comfort zone and treated her body with care for the first time in who knows how long.  She is working to break free from the chains and the lies the enemy has told her for so long about her body, her worth, her appearance, her value……and she hears the truth for the first time in a long time.

When I started the mission of Be a Size You, it was so important to me that women experience true freedom and joy and have faith in the process.  I get frustrated with fitness programs and nutrition programs sometimes, because they can seem rigid even if they weren’t designed to be so, and when a person is just beginning their journey, their old habits are hard to break and the lies are still very loud in their minds.  It takes time, it takes encouragement, it takes a lot of grace, and it isn’t just as simple as saying “fit people don’t skip workouts.”

It is so much more than that. So much more.  I have been guilty of saying “No Excuses” before as a virtual health coach, but I am thankful that God has been laying me low to teach me how to better love and serve those who want to live well and truly “Be a Size You.”

Praying for each of you as you embark on your own personal journey of fitness, faith, and health.  I am always here to help you. It is my greatest joy to serve you in that way.

Be a Size You,

Tiffany

Let’s Get Ahead This Holiday Season

Halloween is on Tuesday, which means more than likely, our homes will be filled to the brim with all of our favorite candies and chocolates. I know for myself, I am going to make sure to have a few of my favorites, and then get rid of the rest. This girl does enjoy her Reese’s and Butterfingers!

Then, before you know it, we will be in full Thanksgiving and Christmas mode. The days are going to FLY. You know it is true.

It happens every year, and every year we say we are not going to get behind.

We are going to enjoy the season.

We are going to take care of ourselves.

But then, we find ourselves frazzled and overwhelmed, and our health more often than not takes a major hit.

I see too many Mamas being taken out during this season due to stress or a common cold or flu.

Not this time. Not you.

We can’t prevent everything from happening. Sometimes we just get sick. But, we can take care of ourselves.

That means we can move our bodies for 30 minutes a few days a week and feel good about it.

We can eat nourishing foods, not be on a diet, and still bake and enjoy our favorites during the season.

We can get ahead of the bustle. We can not let the busyness control us. We set the tone.

Happy wives and mommas make for happier homes.

I have opened up 5 spots for my 1:1 health and fitness coaching.

But I can only take 5 women.

You get a fitness plan.

A nutrition guide.

The option to Maximize your efforts and expedite your results with a daily dose of brainless nutrition in Shakeology.

You get me. One on one. Encouraging you. Walking through this with you. Answering your questions. Being your cheerleader, no matter your goals.

You get a buddy and a coach.

You ready to get ahead of it this year? You ready to finally put off all the reasons (too busy, too expensive, no resources, no support) and take care of you?

Because let me tell you. All those gifts you want to get for your kids? I can guarantee the best gift you can give them is a healthy mama. A mama that wants to be around as long as God wills. But you need to take the initiative and take care of yourself.

I have been there before. I know it can be hard and you don’t think it is worth investing in because you have so many other things to invest in.

But you, Mama, are worth it.

Join me. To be considered, apply here.

Be a Size You,

Tiffany

13 Years…..

Thirteen years of marriage today.  I was 23 and Dan had just celebrated his 26th birthday earlier that month.

We were young and in love and so ready to take that next step into our forever.  This photo captures a funny moment during our vows when Dan was reciting his portion and he repeated the vows “for richer or poorer” and he said:

“For richer and much much poorer.”

Ha!!! And our pastor laughed and told him “You can’t get much poorer than you are now!”

I think, in the course of 13 years, we have learned a lot during our time in our marriage.

13 years of constantly growing.

13 years of saying I am sorry.

13 years of I love you.

13 years of extending grace to one another when disappointments or failed expectations are evident.

13 years of constantly learning how to love one another in our love language (I am acts of service and words of affirmation. Dan is physical touch and gifts..and we still get these wrong!!!!)

We have seen extreme valleys and hardships. We have experienced incredible blessing on mountaintops. God has gifted us with two incredible human beings that we love to death and would do anything for.

We have had to learn, over and over again, to fight for each other, because no one else will.  No one outside of our marriage will fight for us.

That doesn’t mean they don’t love us. Others want good for us.

But when the hard times have come on us, we have had to learn how to lay down our weapons and not fight against each other, as though we were one opposing teams.

We fight side by side. We carry each other’s burdens. We go through hard times together.

And we celebrate in victory together.  Because of the ONE who has bonded us together.

We are going through a valley right now, but I know the end is on the other side.

And even if it is not, He is still good.

And I will still have him by my side.

Happy anniversary to my love.

Tiffany

When You Hear God Clearly, But Still Find Yourself Hurt

God who answers prayer

Sees me in my need

Runs to my despair

Your promise I believe

That You Are, You Are, You Are God

God Who Answers Prayer by Elevation Worship 2009

 

There is no sugar coating it. I have been struggling. Emotionally and physically.

Yesterday, we attended church as a family for the first time in weeks. WEEKS.  A family that has served the better half of a decade in the local church suddenly finds themselves at a loss as to where to attend and worship.  We have mostly resorted to online services and reading bible stories, listening to worship music or even watching  Veggie Tales.

I tend to silently suffer in my emotions. Crying has always felt like a sign of weakness, like I am being a drama queen.  I don’t cry often, but when I do, it is not in front of others.  I can’t stand the attention or the questions from others who are concerned.  Questions like “Are you okay?” are so hard for me to answer.

Because yes, I am okay,  but just a little broken. 

A little tired.

A little weary. 

A lot over it. 

Back in July, I blogged about how we were in the midst of waiting, as Dan felt God was calling him to Pastor a church.  That it was time for him to make the next step in his call in vocational ministry.

We are still waiting, and honestly, this all looks like a pipe dream.

It feels like maybe, we heard wrong.

When Dan didn’t get a position back in June, and then all the “Thanks but no thanks” started to roll in, it was very easy to question what we were doing.

What God was doing.

I felt hurt. What was wrong with us, that nobody wanted us to be a part of their church? And if I could be brutally honest, I began to feel a little bit of anger towards those in leadership at those churches.  It’s an ugly feeling, but I felt it.

It was also easy to question what we did wrong. What questions didn’t we answer correctly? What did I post on social media that they saw and didn’t like and made a judgement about us? So many questions, and we had no answers.

We still have no answers, except to press on.

Perhaps in the meantime, vocational ministry is a no for us.  So we will do other things. We will serve His church.  We will find a church to call home.  I will still work at home with my hands for my family. Dan will work as well….to do what he can do take care of his little family that God has given him to lead.

“And the Lord will guide you continually

and satisfy your desire in scorched places

and make your bones strong;

and you shall be like a watered garden, 

like a spring of water,

whose waters do not fail.” Isaiah 58:11

Sister friends, have you been there? Do you feel as though you have heard God clearly, but yet you find yourself in a place you didn’t expect?

Are you weary of waiting? Does resentment and hurt bubble up inside of you, daring to pour out its devastation and wrath to whoever or whatever crosses its path? Or do just feel tired and lack joy?

I am there with you.  I get it.  As tiring and long as this walk is, as often as we try to put on our brave face and smile through it, as much as we hate complaining….let us also walk in confidence that God hears us, sees us, and cares for us.

Let us cling to promises in His word, even if we have to read them with tight fists and tear-filled eyes.  Even when we literally cannot find the words to utter in prayer, praise Him for the fact that He knows our heart before we speak it out loud.

Let us remember that when all of this is over, we will be like a spring of water. We will be renewed and restored.  We have hope.

Praying for those of you in the trenches and in the desert, sister friends.

Be a Size You,

Tiffany

Coach of the Week: Alesha Haley

Awhile back I decided to create a new feature for my team in order to celebrate those who were crushing their businesses and truly making a difference in their lives and in the lives of others.

And truly, it was hard to pick my first Coach to feature as I have quite a few gals who are just amazing, but I had to choose one.

Introducing my sweet friend, Alesha Haley.  She has been a coach on my team for 2 years and let me tell you, when she started, she took off like a rocket.

She was like a dream coach.  She had created online fitness accountability previously to becoming an online health coach with Beachbody, and she had fallen in love with helping people with find real solutions to their health and fitness struggles.

Over the last month, something triggered in her soul and that passion she had for truly making a difference in the lives of others resurfaced.

*She is consistently on the Top Volume Earner leader board that I share each week in our team page.

*She regularly posts valuable information and recipes to those that follow her on social media.

*She is a wife and mom to two adorable little girls.

*She created her own Team Manual for her brand new coaches who choose to join her team.

*She is creative and willingly shares everything she learns and uses for her business with her team, because she is that committed to helping them succeed.

*She is passionate and one of the sweetest women I know, and have yet to meet in person (which will happen soon!!!)

I have been so inspired by her hard work and passion that it has truly inspired and pushed me to be a better leader for my team and to consistently add more value to all of you who follow me so that you can be a better version of yourself. Because truly, isn’t that worth the hard work?

You can follow Alesha and all of her amazingness over on IG (@Alesha_haley) and on her blog.

Congratulations Alesha! Keep up the hard work!

Be a Size You,

Tiffany

P.S. Thinking of joining my team, Team Be a Size You, and helping us in our mission to help women live healthier, more fulfilling lives?  Apply today and let’s chat to see if online health coaching would be a great fit for you!

From Dreamer to Hope Dealer

I am so proud of the work I get to do as a Beachbody Coach.

I know many folks are now shying away from working in any sort of network marketing company. Usually for reasons that are understandable.

*It is too salesy
*I don't want to be that friend.
*It is all a pyramid scheme
*Only the people at the top make money
*People who work in those type of businesses only care about money.

I hear ya. I had all of those reasons too. I didn't want to be that person. I didn't want to be annoying. I worried about what others would think.

But when I started working on my health and fitness journey back in 2011, and then I started sharing my journey and transformation with others, and then others were telling me how my encouragement helped them to get started, I realized I had found my calling.

No, not in fitness, surprisingly, although I do enjoy fitness and health and eating healthy. And I love Beachbody's programs and Shakeology and supplements.

No, I had found my calling in being a story teller, and pushing people to move from just dreaming about it to doing it.

I became a hope Dealer.

I joined a team of hope dealers.

Here is the deal. I can workout every day and tell you that you should workout too, but I can't make you do it.

But if I constantly tell you my story, and I invite you to join me in this story, so that you begin telling yours…..then I have done my job.

I have had women join my fitness groups who felt discouraged from the very beginning because they didn't believe they could ever finish a fitness program from start to finish simply because they had failed in the past.

My job is to help you see and know that yes, you can.

I don't preach quick fixes. Heck no. This whole working out and eating to nourish deal is for life. You need lifetime habits, girlfriend.

I also help women recognize their dreams for their families. Meaning, they have the opportunity to change their financial future simply by working and doing what I do. There are no guarantees. They have to work. They have to treat it like a job they show up to every day, but I am watching women on my team quit their full time jobs to stay at home, and contribute income and help their family and spouses.

That is hope made possible.

I get to help women who are broken and discouraged, whether due to their health or their life, and walk with them to see transformation. From broken to whole.

Working in health and fitness has very little to do with fitness programs. Those are just products to sell. And they are amazing products/tools that people can use to get healthy. They work.

But the real work, the most inspiring work, the most gratifying work is the work behind the scenes. Working with your friends who also love Jesus and are fellow hope dealers.

And watching lives be transformed.

I am looking for more women like this.

Hello dreamers who want to be hope dealers.

I am taking on 5 women to join my team. Join my mission to help women love the skin they are in, transform their life and the lives of others.

Is that woman you?

I would love to chat with you to see if Team Be a Size You would be a good fit for you.

You can apply here, and I will schedule an appointment to chat.

Don't be afraid of asking. You have nothing to lose by learning more. No pressure.

Just possible dreams being realized.

Be a Size You,

Tiffany

The Widow Maker


Yesterday was a blur. And mostly because Monday did not happen like it normally does.

I was in my groove. I was working, I was getting my 7 Day Keep It Simple challengers ready to kick off on Monday. I was conversing with friends, and I was enjoying a peaceful and productive day.

That changed quickly after phone call from my sister. My Dad had suffered a heart attack and was in the hospital. 

That I needed to hurry. I don’t even remember responding at first. I think she even asked me if I was still on the line. I was in tears and thankfully, Dan was home and got up and was right at my side.

All I remember was being frantic, trying to figure out how to head to the hospital, which was an hour away from us, how to get the kids. Should we take the kids? Did we even have time? Was my Dad even alive? I had no other info except “heart attack” and “get to hospital”.

Dan decided to drive us because I was just in no condition to drive. I was shaking. 

I remember yelling out “Not today God. You can’t take him today.”

I wasn’t trying to boss God around, although my husband now jokes that I was being bossy. But I was desperate. It is was in my pleading and praying that I had no other words or thoughts except “No. Please NO.”

I am sure there are theological errors in how I prayed yesterday. I will let God correct me.

My Dad is alive. We got to the hospital. He was talking. He was joking with us. I could tell he was trying to brush it off a little bit. I am sure it was a little humbling with your entire family there, especially your grown daughters, clucking and crying over you. I don’t like people asking me what is wrong or worrying over me. I get that from my Dad. 

They called it the Widow Maker, the heart attack my Dad had. Most men that experience this type of heart attack don’t even make it to the hospital. Death is not instant but it is almost always certain. He almost died. I cried all the way to the hospital and suddenly in the room, hearing the Doctor share what they had to do in order to help fix him and stabilize him. I am still processing everything. I am not even sure if this post makes any sense. 

I left the hospital thanking God for His mercy. That my Daddy is still here. Changes are going to have to be made. My Dad had to cancel some big trips and plans. But I would much rather have him here.

This morning, I woke up a little more heavy hearted, but ready.

I did some yoga from Beachbody on Demand and spent time listening to worship music and praying.

Listening to my Mom and my Aunt talk about our health family history put all of this in perspective.

It was a wake up call again for me. Our family is a ticking time bomb of health concerns. Cancer. Diabetes. Heart Disease. That runs in my family. But I don’t have to play victim. I can’t prevent everything from happening to me. I don’t have that kind of power.

But I can be pro-active. I can choose to eat differently. I can know my family health history and live in a way that can reduce my risks. This is in no way to shame my Daddy. I am so thankful.

But I am wide awake right now. I well aware of the dangers. I have always a researcher. You better believe when I got home last night that I started researching for my Daddy. For myself. For my family. 

Because just because it is a part of your family history doesn’t mean you have to just take it lying down. I am too stubborn to live that way. That is not a hill I am willing to die on. 

So far, our prayers are that there was little to no permanent damage to his heart. He will be at the hospital for the next few days. I am so grateful to this community. Thank you in advance for praying for us. Your outpouring of love and support on social media has been overwhelming and we are so incredibly humbled and grateful. 

Be a Size You,

Tiffany 

Beauty in the Weeds

When my son was a toddler, he would constantly pluck these yellow “flowers” and give them to me. He thought they were pretty.

He wanted to bless his momma with them. 

They would often come to me crumbled in his chubby hands, but I cherished them regardless.

Because even though most considered them to weeds and most of the time we wouldn’t pay much attention to them, my son did. He noticed them. He stopped to pick them for me and give them to the person he loved. They were pretty to him, even though they may be ugly to the rest of us.

Our family has been through several seasons of wading through the weeds. Whether it be through job transition, parenting struggles, marriage struggles, it is what it is. Being down in the weeds is hard and it can be difficult to find beauty during that time.

I remember one point when Dan had lost his job. We had no income to speak of coming in, except for my very small business which wasn’t making enough to cover rent or really anything else, and constantly stressed about how we would pay the bills and survive. What about our kids? How would we feed them? How do we nurture them when our world felt like it was crumbling all around us.

Then came the “flowers.” My son’s flowers. During that time when he would pick those little yellow buds from overgrown grass, it was at the time when Dan and I were uncertain if the lights would stay on. If we would lose our apartment. If we would have to move in with family (we did, eventually), if Dan would find another job (he did, praise God!). If our marriage would survive (obviously, we are going on almost 13 years of marriage!)

God opened my eyes to see that beauty and His hope is found everywhere. In all of my worry and anxiety and fear, I forgot to cling to hope. I was afraid we wouldn’t be provided for. And yet we were. He provides for us in our need, not necessarily our wants. We had to sacrifice, to be sure. We had to say goodbye to the things we had grown accustomed to. We couldn’t do as many fun things as we had liked or wished. 

But He still provided. And we are still together as a family. We still had each other. God mended our brokenness and brought us closer together so that while our time was hard, we still had our family. We still had love. And that made us fight harder to see beauty in the weeds.

I don’t know where you are today. Struggle seems to be all around my friends lately. I am lifting you up today. 

Can I encourage you, as you wander through overgrown fields of worry, anxiety, fear, uncertainty and more, that you look for beauty. You look for hope. And remember that the God of the universe cares for you? 

For even the flowers are cared for. They have no need to worry about what the day will bring or how to dress. God has taken care of it. 

And He, more so, will take care of you. Is that easier said than done? Sure. But believe anyway. 

“And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?” Matthew 6:28-30

Be a Size You,

Tiffany