Happy Sunday friends!
This morning at church, Pastor Mike Carmen shared this verse with us and I have to say that I believe it is perfect for each and every one of us. May we walk each day humbly before our God and consider the needs of others above our own.
“Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others.” -Philippians 2:3-4
My friend Stephanie is having a Blog your heart challenge. I definitely wanted to participate because I want my friends to really know and understand that I am not a perfect girl. That I am so far from it and in fact, I get it wrong most of the time. I hope you will join in the challenge.
Just be you and be real.
#1. I struggle a lot with feeling inadequate. With feeling unworthy. I have a great husband, beautiful children, a roof over my head and clothes on my back. Yet I struggle all the time that I am just not worthy to have it all because of my faults. Because I lose my temper with my loved ones. Because I lack patience with them. Sometimes I ask myself if I really truly deserve my family. Often I tell myself no.
#2. I am no good at keeping a clean house. I try, oh do I try. But my husband is far better at organizing and cleaning than I am. It’s the truth!
#3. That being said I am a pretty good cook and I really do enjoy it. But I just can’t get behind cleaning…haha!
#4. I write and talk a lot about working out and eating healthy. So a lot of my friends think that I LOVE it. I don’t. I would much rather sit on my butt and watch the Real Housewives of New Jersey eating ooey gooey treats. But since that will probably kill me I make myself do it. I do enjoy working out and eating well because I feel better afterwards. And since I want to live long enough to spoil my grandchildren I do it. Because the reality is I LOVE me some cupcakes y’all.
#5. I would like another baby. There I said it. I have been fighting it for so long!
#6. I am a Pastor’s wife. Sometimes I want to hide in a hole and never come out because while this is a calling I am humbled to be a part of, it can get very overwhelming. I try to enjoy it as much as I can, but it gets hard. It can be discouraging when people don’t listen. They talk behind your back or they talk bad about your husband to your face. And you can’t body slam them even though deep down inside you really want to. (All you PW’s know what I mean!).
#7. I struggle with my prayer life. I read my Bible, but I struggle with actually praying daily. I am ashamed to admit it.
#8. I feel like folks judge me, especially Christians, because I chose to have a network marketing business in health and fitness in order to help my family. I am afraid that they believe I no longer care about ministry or Jesus because I chose something out of the norm. That I didn’t go out and get a regular job or just focus on raising my children. I have to fight through my fears daily and tell myself that I am doing what I need to do to help my husband and I am still able to love and care for my family. To try not to justify myself to the naysayers.
So there it is. A piece of my heart for you all. Will you join in?
Dan and I had the opportunity to attend an incredible conference with other pastors from our church. To say that we were inspired, motivated and encouraged to move in our cause and love for our college group, Illuminate, is an understatement.
It reaffirmed that we are, for right this second, where we are supposed to be. Unless God guides us elsewhere, we are doing what He wants and we are excited to see what He is going to be doing through the people of Illuminate. So many incredible things have been happening the past couple of years that my heart can’t quite exactly capture it all into words. To put it down into a blog post would almost demean what God has done….because my words are so few. So trivial compared to God’s great wonders.
At the conference, one quote struck a chord with me. The reminder of how finite I really am. How short our time is here. How real Hell is.
“Time is short. Hell is hot. People matter.” Chris Brown
People matter. Love God. Love people. Tell them about Jesus.
Those who walk through your doors, you never know what is battling inside. You never know if the message they hear at that very moment would drop them to their knees and seek the Father and worship Him. You just never know. It was said many times over the course of two days that the most important day is not your first day…..
It’s your last day.
Photo by Sheri Wasserlein Photography
7 years ago we said I do.
Happy anniversary my love.
I am so thankful that you chose me to be your wife. You are still my first choice. I can’t wait to see what the years bring us.
I love you.
Sean loves being outside. On Monday, he and I walked down the street to the store to grab some diapers (because of course I would run out before my Amazon order came in) and perhaps a treat at Starbucks.
Let me tell you that it is not a good thing that Starbucks is within walking distance.
Not. A. Good. Thing.
The weather was gorgeous. The sun was shining and the trees looked so lovely on our street. Heavenly.
I love being outside in the sunshine. And with the chill that is starting to settle in, it makes going for an afternoon walk much more bearable.
Do you love being outside?
“Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.”– Judy Garland
I saw this quote today and it absolutely resonated with me. It serves as a reminder for me whenever I try to be like another mom, stressing over how much money we don’t have compared to someone else. Wondering why I can’t sing like some of the other gals I know.
But I really don’t want to be a version of them.
I want to be me. The girl God designed and created for a specific purpose. To fulfill my own dreams. Take charge and go towards my own passions. Explore and show off my own personality.
I want people to love the girl that I am. Not the girl that I am pretending to be.
I still have days where I compare myself to others. Don’t we all.
But I am going to work really hard not to.
Because like Judy Garland says, I want to be a first rate version of myself.
Yesterday at church Pastor Shane delivered a great message on gray areas in the Bible. Now, there are plenty of things within God’s word that are considered black or white. To do it or not to do it. Meaning….they are very clear.
But there are areas and things that we come across as a follower of Christ that we wonder about and are curious as to whether or not it would be a sin to participate in. For example: Public school v Homeschool. To be honest, when Dan and I were praying over Madison’s education, we were approached many times about the idea of Homeschooling. I am not against homeschooling at all. In fact I think that is absolutely fantastic that there are parents who are capable of educating their child in both spiritual and educational (math, science etc). I am impressed by them. But when I or Dan would tell them that we were planning to send Madison to public school, you could literally see the disappointment they felt in our decision. You don’t have to search too far to see that there is a major debate on what is the best education for Christian children. It can be downright intimidating and frustrating. The truth of the matter is, School is one of those gray areas. Some families have very strong convictions regarding education. And those are their convictions…..not necessarily yours.
So with all that being said, Pastor Shane delivered a practical and helpful message regarding gray areas. If you are struggling under the weight of another’s conviction or are just unsure of how to process those gray areas, please listen to this message!
P.S. And just for fun, because I think it was one of Pastor Shane’s best messages, check out the one he had regarding marriage titled “Marriage Solutions”.
8 killed in Southern California salon shooting – Yahoo! News.
Yesterday you may have heard of the Salon shooting in Seal Beach, California where 8 were killed and 1 is listed in critical condition.
Living in Anaheim, not far from the small beach community, it was too close for comfort.
My sister works in a small salon. And while she does not work at Salon Meritage….it scared me.
Because it could have happened anywhere. Or perhaps we knew someone there that day. Perhaps it is just my overactive imagination. Yes…that must be it.
I have been absorbing the details of the story. The shooter. How he is described. They describe him as outgoing. Nice. Friendly to neighbors.
On the outside, this man appeared sane, quiet and without violence. But inside there was a different story. He was experiencing pain and bitterness towards some very serious things. With his ex-wife and his son.
And he lashed out. He was not still inside. He acted out in a moment of anger, fury or even desperation. And wrought havoc on the lives of so many.
I am praying for this man, for the Seal Beach community. For the victims and their families. It was a sad, tragic day yesterday and I am asking for the Lord’s presence and peace to be evident.
Will you join me in praying for those in Seal Beach today?
Tripp & Tyler – Godz Bodz video | Jesus never said….
I saw this really funny video online today thanks to the fabulous world of Twitter. Tripp and Tyler are two hilarious guys on the internet who like to have a little fun.
And I do realize they may be making fun of a certain workout program (which is actually a really good program!) and of Christians who promote exercise religiously ;).
But I like to laugh and I am not offended ;). In fact I think I may have cackled. But you can’t prove it.
So enjoy you guys!
Have a great Wednesday.
On Saturday, I got to participate in a fun little photoshoot with my Dad and sister, Sheena.
Sheena did my hair and makeup for the shoot and can I say she did such an incredible job!! If you are in Southern California, you need to hit her up. And I am not just saying that because she is my sister.
Remember? I always tell you about the things I love. So go check her out.
While I am waiting (not so patiently) for those photos, I thought I would show you what I looked like after my shoot.
This was a few hours after the shoot and my hair was still intact. Y’all that never happens. I don’t know how to do my hair. Or my makeup.
If I could have her make me up every time I had to see people I would. Ha!
Have a blessed Tuesday folks!