My stomach was in knots all day. The news coming from my husband's mouth was shocking to both of us. We both stared at each other, not sure what to say next. What to think. How to pray. Have you ever had one of those days? Experienced something so startling that your nerves are just a mess. You feel sick, nauseous. Upset, angry, hurt. The tears flow. At least for me.
We had Illuminate in just a few hours. We both could feel our anxiety and heartbreak fighting with us as we sought to continue our ministry to those we loved at our Young Adult group. In humble obedience, we placed our hearts before our heavenly Father, trusting in His goodness to speak through us.
We were blessed to witness students choosing Hope. God moved.
At home we prayed together.
We are not immune to falling. That was the first thought out of my wise husband's mouth.
"It could have very well have been me."
It was then I couldn't hold the tears anymore. I prayed for my husband. For his ministry. For protection. I prayed for those hurt. For those we know who are in ministry.
We are not immune to falling.
When we are doing Kingdom work, obedient to God and loving His people, Satan is on the prowl. Those who are not idle in their walk are his prey. He seeks to destroy us. He will lie to us, accuse us. And sometimes, it seems like he succeeds.
In Lamentations 3:19-29 (ESV) the author speaks of remembering his own afflictions and wanderings. Remembering my past, how God brought me from so much. And He continues to restore me when I wander in my heart and in my life.
That His grace is limitless. His loving-kindness never failing.
"..praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints.." Ephesians 6:18 (ESV)
In His Grace,