Monthly Archives: May 2010

Thank You!

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Thank you to the men and women who have served and are currently serving our country.

Thank you to the men and women who have sacrificed their very life so that we could experience freedom. We don't take that for granted.

Thank you to the families who, with heavy hearts, give their son, daughter, wife, husband, soul mate and friend to serve our country and protect those they don't even know.

To the families who lost loved ones…my heart breaks for  you and please know we thank you and them. Again….we don't take their sacrifice lightly.

Have a beautiful Memorial Day remembering.

Tiff~

P.S. If you or someone you know is serving or has served, I would love to pray for you/them today. Please feel free to leave a comment with any information you feel led to give.  

I Am Not Dead But Alive

This morning, I was profoundly moved by what I read during my quiet time.  This past week, I have been a wreck, beating myself up over every single failure, minor slip up of the tongue, my lack of patience with my family.  You name it, I probably felt and did it this week. 

But praise be to God that I don't have to be a slave to this.  This behavior is no longer who I am. 

In Romans 8, Paul tells us that if we have the Holy Spirit dwelling within us (and all of us who are believers do) then we are free from the law of sin. 

Sin=death. 

But Christ, who was risen from the dead by our heavenly Father, equals life.  Eternal  life.  The supernatural ability to overcome the fleshly desires that so often wage war against us.

Do we sin? We sure do. And we will until Christ's return.

But we are not a slave to it.  This means that our life is no longer run by our sin or flesh…..but it is controlled by the Holy Spirit.  When we set our mind on the Spirit, there  is life and peace (Romans 8:6b NAS). The Holy Spirit is our helper who directs us, convicts us, changes us, molds us to be like Jesus.  It takes discipline and we need to obey and listen…..but with the Spirit we have the ability.

It was this passage today that blew me away.  Literally, I had to stop, reflect, write it down in my journal and on a note card for memorization:

"But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you."

God gives us life through the indwelling of the Holy Spirit in our lives.  Our bodies, though dead to sin, were brought to life through Christ Jesus. 

Hallelujah. Amazing Grace.

Be blessed friends.

Tiff~

P.S. I realize that not everyone who stops by my blog shares my beliefs.  If you ever have any questions, please do not hesitate to leave it in the comments or email me.

Spiders Freak Me OUT!

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So  I have an unhealthy, completely irrational fear of spiders.  I believe they call that Arachnophobia.  No seriously. Spiders freak me out.

The picture above that you see if a spider my husband found just hanging out near our back patio in our last apartment. I quickly went to my friends on the internet to figure out what type of spider it was and if it would kill me if bitten.

The answer was is: A Huntsman spider…and it's bite apparently will not kill me…but it will hurt!

Today while looking for a baby monitor that I am going to give to a friend…I had to enter the dreaded garage.  I am completely terrified of finding a black widow or brown recluse hiding in there and trying to take a chunk out of my finger or leg and I die in the process.

So I ran away like a four year old. I think I will let Dan do the dirty business of searching for stuff in there.

Gives me the heeby jeebies.

Do you have any crazy, irrational fears? I know you do! šŸ˜‰

Tiff~

A Fear of My Pride

I have shared with you all before that I love to sing.  I have been singing since I was 5 years old and for most of my life it was my dream to perform.

I  had many opportunities in my life to be on stage in musical theater and in school to showcase my talent.  I loved and still love singing.  It is in my blood. It is who I am. 

When I became a Christian, I became involved in the worship team.  I had been asked a couple of times to lead worship for the college group.  Dan has asked me before if I would be interested and I have often had thoughts about being a worship leader.  But I always keep myself from pursuing such a thing.

It isn't because I don't believe I can do it.  I am confident enough in my ability.

I am mostly afraid of me.  My pride. 

As Rachel Berry from Glee said "I am like Tinkerbell. I need applause to live."

I love attention.  I am mostly afraid that should I ever get on that stage and lead folks in corporate worship (which is a huge deal and should never be taken lightly) that my head would get so fat glorifying myself that it would explode.  I am afraid of forgetting the real reason why I was doing it. 

I don't anticipate that I would behave this way.  It is just a fear that I have because I know myself.  I know that sometimes I can get carried away.  That I can tend to get a little too excited about something and forget the whole point of why I was doing it.  That I can get caught up in the attention that I am getting from it as opposed to focusing on who or what I was doing it for. 

It is an ugly side of me that I try my best not to let resurface.  I can get cocky and behave as if I am the  hottest thing that showed up this side of the world.  I don't like it, but I know that she is there.  And if I am not careful she can rear her ugly head.

But I also need to remember that God, with the Holy Spirit will enable me with all the strength, endurance and humility to fulfill a task.  That should God direct me to be a worship leader, or anything else for that matter, that I would present my offering humbly at His feet…..knowing that He would do with it according to His will. That if He directs me to move in a direction, I need to move.  I should not let fear dictate whether or not I obey God.  You just need to obey.

This is not a blog post about me believing I am to be a worship leader. To be quite honest I don't really know what I am supposed to be doing besides being a wife and partner to my husband and a loving mommy to my babies.  I am praying for direction right now.  But right now God seems to be keeping me in the home right now and I am okay with that.  I know that there is a time and place for everything. 

Basically my point is I have a fear of my pride resurfacing and ruining everything.  Because I am a fallen child…saved by Grace.  I know that I will fail. But I have a loving and kind Father in heaven who will forgive me. Will help me wipe off the dust on my pant legs and encourage me to keep moving. To keep holding His hand and to keep yearning for His will for my life.  I won't allow  the enemy to keep reminding me that I am a prideful, overconfident woman who shouldn't waste her time with God's work. 

I want to be on the front lines.  I don't want to sit in the background.  Whether I choose singing, teaching women to study their Bible or travel around the world loving the orphans….should my pride resurface, may my Loving Savior bring me back to the ground.

What are your fears? Do you feel God directing you in some way but you find yourself  hesitating? Why?

Tiff~

Patience and Self-Control

On Monday, the Good Morning Girls blog posted it's first challenge of the session by memorizing Galatians 5:22-23.  The fruit of the Spirit. 

They then asked us to identify which characteristics we often find we lack or really struggle with.  I have two.  And I am learning that they are linked together more often than not.

I have spoken on my lack of patience before.  I tend to be very particular about certain details, the speed in which things need to be done and how they need to be done and whether or not they understand me quickly enough.  I often fail to show grace to individuals if they seem to take a little longer to complete projects or interpret tasks and situations than I'd like.  It isn't pretty when I lose my patience.  I can literally feel my skin crawl and my mind working up ways to try and rush the individual.

It angers me when I do this to my husband and my children.  When I lack patience with them, I fail to extend grace to them.  And most often they can feel my impatience through my words.  I begin to lack the self control and I don't bridle my tongue. When I lose my patience, words that hurt or cut tend to flow from my lips. The same lips that worshiped my Lord and Savior are the lips that yell at my husband and children to hurry up or to get it right.

So I am laying this at the feet of the Father.  For only He can fill me with the ability to have true godly patience and the self control that comes from the Holy Spirit. 

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23.

I will ask you the same question.

What characteristic(s) of the fruit of the Spirit do you feel you are lacking? 

Blessings,

Tiff~

Engaging in Fellowship

For this summer I have challenged myself to be more involved in fellowship with other women.  I am not entirely sure what that looks like, but I am hoping that I can find something that will allow me to be around other women who will love me and I can love them. To pray for them and for them to pray for me.  To read scripture and encourage one another.

Basically, I am craving female friendship.  Real, intimate and personal friendships with women whom I can trust and bear my heart to.  I have a few friends whom I love dearly, but one lives very far away and she and her hubby are about to embark on an incredible new journey.  While I know that if I ever needed her she would never turn me away, it would be unfair of me to unleash burdens on her right now or demand all of her time when quite frankly, she really doesn't have a lot of time to give.  And I completely understand that.  This happens from time to time with your friends and you have to learn to adjust and love them even though you may not be able to see them nearly as much as you used to.

All that being said……I really am still wanting girlfriends.  I want to do a bible study with them. I want to pray with them and laugh with them..and have lunch with them.  Living in a fishbowl (I'm not complaining I promise!) can get lonely sometimes and you have to be careful who you choose to be friends with.  I hate to say it, but not everyone wants to be your friend for the right reason….especially if you are in leadership. I am not just talking to those in ministry either. Your husband could be an important CEO, businessman, mayor etc.  I think those of us who are in a unique position like this know what I am talking about. 

So with prayer and trust God will reveal those women to me…I am on the look out for a few good gal pals.

What about you?  What are you craving right now in your life?  Friendship, stability, peace?

Tiff~

Madi and Sean

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She loves Disney princesses.

Dances around constantly in our living room.

Keeps reminding us every single day that she is four years old and no longer three.

Loves to cuddle and squish her baby brother.

Keeps forgetting that he is only ten months old and tries to pick him up.

Daddy is her favorite buddy right now.

Has a sweet tooth just like her mama.

Can say the Lord's prayer all by herself.

Loves Gigi, God's Little Princess and all Disney Princess movies.

Cannot go to bed without Daddy reading her at least two stories at night.

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He will be eleven months old in 2 weeks.

Is already walking around the house.

Loves his sister and adores playing with her.

Loves to rough house.

He gets into EVERYTHING!

Likes to eat anything that is on the floor….it doesn't matter if it is edible or not!

Loves water and will splash like a mad baby the entire time. Poor Mommy is then completely wet.

Cannot sleep without Mommy close by.

Is just now starting to really sleep through the night.

Is already showing his personality.  Let's just say he is going to give me trouble ;).

Gives the best baby kisses ever!

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These two are best friends and they are the best little buddies a Mommy could ask for.

Hope you all have a blessed evening!

Tiff~

Revisiting My Word

In the beginning of the year I shared with all of you the word I had chosen for 2010: Create.

I thought I would revisit the topic and share my progress.

To be honest, the first couple of months in 2010 were spent at my in laws. It was hard for me to create a home when it wasn’t, in fact, my home. Not impossible….but very hard.

But praise God He provided us with a beautiful place in March for us to move into and a place that I could begin to dream, imagine and create into a sanctuary for my family.

I have been so excited these past few weeks to plan and make delicious and healthy meals for us. We all sit atthe table at dinnertime and enjoy each other’s company and share about our day.

I spend moments in the morning scouring the best deals so that I can fill our cupboards and home with the things we will need in order to thrive. We don’t have a ton of money left over, so as the one staying at home it is my responsibility to manage our finances.

I have been able to spend time being with my children and my husband in a relaxed setting…as opposed to rushing around trying to find time together due to tight work schedules. Now I can create precious moments with my family in my own home.

I love it.

There is so much more to imagine with this word that I have chosen. I am excited for God to show me how else I can create and how it pertains to me and my family and ministry.

How are you doing with your chosen word?

Tiff~

Revisiting My Word

In the beginning of the year I shared with all of you the word I had chosen for 2010: Create.

I thought I would revisit the topic and share my progress.

To be honest, the first couple of months in 2010 were spent at my in laws. It was hard for me to create a home when it wasn’t, in fact, my home. Not impossible….but very hard.

But praise God He provided us with a beautiful place in March for us to move into and a place that I could begin to dream, imagine and create into a sanctuary for my family.

I have been so excited these past few weeks to plan and make delicious and healthy meals for us. We all sit atthe table at dinnertime and enjoy each other’s company and share about our day.

I spend moments in the morning scouring the best deals so that I can fill our cupboards and home with the things we will need in order to thrive. We don’t have a ton of money left over, so as the one staying at home it is my responsibility to manage our finances.

I have been able to spend time being with my children and my husband in a relaxed setting…as opposed to rushing around trying to find time together due to tight work schedules. Now I can create precious moments with my family in my own home.

I love it.

There is so much more to imagine with this word that I have chosen. I am excited for God to show me how else I can create and how it pertains to me and my family and ministry.

How are you doing with your chosen word?

Tiff~