On Saturday I had the opportunity to attend Beth Moore’s So Long Insecurity Simulcast at my church. It was amazing and so inspiring to be in a room worshipping before the throne of God with over 200 hundred women…as well as thousands more across the country!!
I have to be honest though. I was a tad, unsure, when I attended the conference. You see, I am really shy. Those that know me may laugh because I appear outgoing. But it is totally forced and I have to make myself approach someone.
Would you believe that I hid in the bathroom for a little bit during lunch? Lol!
The following is from my journal which I wrote while waiting for session two of the conference to begin:
How ironic. I am shy and insecure at an insecurity seminar. I actually contemplated staying in the bathroom until the second session began.
Enough. Like it is stated in the scriptures, what have I learned. What was the truth that I was taught?
Get rid of the old self. The self that tells me I am not goof enough. That I am not a good person, a good wife, a good mother, a good Christian or for crying out loud a good Pastor’s wife. Those are lies from the pit of hell, meant to tear me away from Jesus.
Renew the spirit of my mind. Glean from the riches that are imprinted in this text. Open it and open your ears and hear God speak.
What does it say about the grace of God? About Jesus? Jess did not die on the cross so that I could continue lying in fear of myself. To go inward and become so obsessed with myself that I drown out the Holy Spirit. I need to shut up those voices in my head and return my attention…all of my attention to He who saved me.
Put on my new self. Putting on Christ each day. Putting on the brand new girl that does not dwell in her insecurity, that shaky ground she used to tread on, knowing she should get off, but not entirely sure how to. The new girl who stands firm in who she is in Christ. I may have ugly hair, ugly teeth. I may yell at my kids and neglect my husband…those are things that I can and will change. But I can’t change the girl God designed me to be.”
I realize my journaling is a little sporadic. But I was inspired by the scripture shared at the simulcast. Ephesians 4:17-24. I did not learn Christ so that I could be insecure. I did not learn Christ so that I could remain in darkness. No! I learned that I was to put off my old self, renew my mind to the truth that is in Christ Jesus and put on my new self….the one saved by Grace.
At the end of the Simulcast all the women uttered a commissioning statement. If you want to read it, head over to the Living Proof Ministries blog.
Have a great Wednesday friends. Say goodbye to insecurity!!